yea. mayb i'm just giving excuses. seriously, wat am i doing ): studies && .... you noe tht you are mre important. nw i get it. only nw whn all is upside dwn. nw i get it. nw i noe why you said tht you want to hand tht project up on friday. i'm @ th wrong && yet you suffer mre den me. i dont ask for your forgiveness. you can hate me ): though i'd be real sad too ): but i shuld be th one suffering frm th things i've done & nt you. so if it makes you feel better, hate me. ): you've done nothing wrong so make me suffer cause i'm th one tht's wrong.
byebye to a smiling jeslyn && hello to a crying jeslyn. who cares anyway yea ? i'm th worst ): worst of th worst ): above is fwr tht someone tht i've hurt soo many times unknowingly, but hav always hid it. fwr all i've done, i'm sorry. watching you suffer is as good as killing me. sch was suckish cause. ): mayb i'm a workaholic ? no. everyone noes tht i hate work. so yea. you can say i'm giving excuses . worst of my moods ? kindda ? i'm so nt gonna reply any pepos smses or tolk to anyone 2day :\ gonna do some reflection && do something tht i shuld've done yesterday. seriously why did i even exsist in this world ? i'm soo .. so self-centered ): why didnt i think abt his feelings before saying tht we chiong our project? ): suppose i'm born as a clueless person(aka dunnoe how get signals) ): please blame everything on me now okk ? it'll make you and me feel better.
blahhblahh ! yesterday night i really did chiong :\ ended up wif 4 cutted fingers -.- aint i stupid ? all because of how i use a penkinfe -.- 2 fingers are bandaged && 2 are nt ): woke up && it's raining. walked in th rain to sch. who cares if i gt sick ? let's give myself another excuse. blame everything tht happened on th history project. no. blame all on me. if we gt bad results, dont blame yourself. blame it all on me fwr wanting you to accompany me almost everyday. ): i chiong paint th box -.- stupid. skipped recess just to chiong paint -.- anyway i wasted my recess money on a new box of paint. no use fwr me going dwn already. :\ thnks jiayan love :] treat me to a small packet of choco :] && fwr crapping wif me during science :X && fwr lifting my mood up just abit during science :] ily jiayan !
please critisize me if you want. i'm giving you a chance to scold me fwr all you want. sms, call, tagbox, face to face. shout && shoot all th 'F' rated words && craps. ending date will b th day whn i finally am able to truly smile. so yea. you're welcome to shout && shoot me frm now. nt tht anyone will give a damn abt all this things nw. ): i wonder why did you waited fwr me tht time ? i dont deserve your love ): i've hurt you so many times ): would you be better without me ? mayb you wouldn't hav all this sad times ): if i've never exsisted. if only. ): but i've never regreted on falling in love with you. you will b th only one. i wouldn't blame you fwr hating me. mayb i'm just typing all this craps just because i want pepos to comfort me. let me tell all of your stright. i nid no comfort . cause i deserve all this problems. tag if you want. comfort me if you want. but just let me tell you i'd just ignore all th comforts. && comforts just make me wanna cry mre. so yea. you can say tht i've changed. i dont know. i'm just a stupid, idiot, freaking, asshole. so yea. good bye to this cruel world ! i'd take th chance to gwet away frm this world whn i've one. dont miss me.
i dont know what th hell i'm typing above. so ignore my craps if you want. i just nid to type it all out so i'd rmb && i'd reflect.
